[edit: I have a minor sketch in this topic. I stand by a lot of what I say but I was also being very naive. If you don't approve of my drug habits, you might be better off skipping to a bit later in the topic when I admit I have a drug problem before you read the title post.]

Formerly titled: No Free Will Until you Drop Acid

Many of you view me as a burnout, full of disdain, ego and foolish ideology. It hurts, but I'll admit I bring it upon myself with my behavior. The last topic I made on this subject trailed off into vague drugged out nonsense and did nothing but reinforce this image.

I love you all. I love everybody. If you can't handle my honesty you think I'm out to get you, but this couldn't be further from the truth. I want the best for you, I want you to wake up. I know I can get real personal and get on the offensive about things you may view as unfair, and you may be right. I take things too personally. I attempt to take your mindset into myself to try and understand you and it disappoints and angers me. You're all slaves, slaves to the unconscious mechanisms you had no choice but to absorb. I wasn't any better, I did a lot of things unconsciously myself.

I love myself. I'm great. You should love yourself too, it feels good. Alto knows what I'm talking about. I realize this makes people uncomfortable so I parody my ego with things like my former screen name. Right over people's heads.

…Anyway…

Bare with me.

Once upon a time a bunch of people decided man was not a part of nature, they decided we were superior beings and this place was given to us by an even more superior being. Two thousand years of us fools viewing everything outside of "civilized" society as a vast wasteland full of diseases, spooky things, gross things, and soulless meat machines. But it doesn't matter because this place is just the ruins of a lost Eden and we only have to be here for a few decades before we can spend eternity in paradise. So fuck it, we can do whatever we want, we're just destroying this shithole that's destined for rapture soon anyway.

Then we got enlightenment, we got freedom, we got science. All great stuff, but we're still stuck in ways people are never willing to admit. I'm not going to go too far into what I think of our legal freedom, I think you all know where I stand and I don't want this topic to be about that, but the state of our "freedom" is definitely a symptom of us being stuck. What we're stuck in is the mindset that man is disconnected, everything is ultimately made up of dead matter and that progress is anything that further disconnects us from nature. We may have (kinda) ditched Christianity, but in rejecting the mystical nature of it's world view we have gone too far in the other direction. The scientific community is so misguided, but their hearts are (kinda) in the right place. They're so concerned with demystifying the world but they forget that the very foundations of their practice are still quite mystical (ex. Newton was a closet alchemist. Google.) and time and time again their results are frustratingly and confusingly mystical.

We are not merely made up of dead subatomic matter reacting to create the illusion of consciousness. Nature is not merely made up of dead subatomic matter reacting to create the illusion of life. Something flows through all of us. A universal connection, a collective unconscious, a collective energy… And it's pure. It is emotional, it doesn't adhere to our conception of logic, and it connects all of us together as one. Humans, animals, plants, air, dirt, distant stars, everything. It is infinity, it was never created and it will never be destroyed. I shouldn't even say this flows through us, this IS us. You are not your brain, your brain is polluted with experiences and education and has been warped to form your personality. You are the space. You have always been the space and you will always be the space. You merely utilize your brain, it is not you.

Ideally, one would realize this fact through a lifetime of regular meditation, but the general populace doesn't have this kind of patience. Don't worry, there are other methods. Until you truly step back into your true self and analyze your mind from that space, you have no true free will. You are a slave to your subconscious mechanisms. Things imposed in you by society, your community, your parents, your friends, your experiences, and dysfunctions in your brain chemistry. Once you do this you will realize that nothing is real, nothing except for love. Money is made up. Property is made up. Borders are made up. Cultures are made up. What the fuck do you think the hippies were talking about? Sure, the bulk of them sold out, but those ones were just going with the trends in the first place. Some of them, though, knew something you don't. The man was afraid, so they made their tools of exploring consciousness illegal.

Psychedelics turn the internal world into the external world as you step back and observe from the space. Once you're truly there, you have full awareness of your subconscious mechanisms, you can metaprogram yourself, remove aspects of your personality you realize serve you badly and play up the good stuff, and become aware of all the bullshit that's been imposed in you. Have some fun and when you come back you throw yourself back into the external world to play with your mind as it interacts with other people's minds and the world around you. But this time, you're conscious, you're awake. Assuming you know what you're doing in there. So many people get lost and never return.

I'm not claiming to be enlightened. I am claiming to be closer than the average person, but I still fall back into patterns often.

Nature is alive. Everything is alive. The soul, love, flows through everything in this universe and binds us all together. People go through the motions of day to day life, stuck, either thinking everything is meaningless or that God has their backs, and both views lead to rampant materialism, wars over property, wars over ideals and all that bullshit. 6 billion unconscious fools, going through the motions until they die.

Love. Wake up.